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[nilhilistic]

I am curious now, considering what this world is for and what it attempts to do.

Is there a crime you would consider unforgivable? What would it be?

And if that isn't the case, what is your idea of repatriation?

Please, share your thoughts.

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[avitus]

You keep getting hung up on this scale shit, but it really doesn't change anything. Hell, in a messed up way, it's almost kinder than just a few. Ever hear a mother cry over her dead kid? I have. It's the worst fucking sound in the world. Turn a whole planet into a graveyard, and there's nobody left to cry.

[He shakes his head, frustrated.]

What I'm trying to say is that I don't hate those people whose asses I had to kick, even though I stood to lose everything. Even though I did lose some important shit. I'm not even human anymore because I died stopping one of them.

[IT'S. IT'S A LONG STORY.]

But beating yourself up about it doesn't help anyone. Least of all anyone you hurt.

[nilhilistic]

[ kinder???

you know what. he's not touching that. he has zero interest in explaining the depths of what he did. ]

Then I suppose I shall go frolic in a meadow.

[avitus]

[Welp. He tried.]

Whatever floats your boat, dude. {Eyeroll.] You could try sparring. Maybe getting literally beat up'd make you feel better?

[He shrugs expansively]

Or just keep on brooding and whining about it. I mean, look how well that's working out for you already!

[nilhilistic]

I do not spar with little ones. Which you all are.

Perhaps when you're older.

[avitus]

[Okay it was funny when Hiei said it, but really now. Really.]

I've been kicking centuries-old demon ass for years now, but okay, grandpa. Enjoy your brooding instead.

[nilhilistic]

Years and centuries still pale to a dragon.

After all, will you still be here?

cw uhh fantasy self-harm??? idk

[avitus]

I mean....I'm a demon now, so probably, yeah?

[Ugh. He hates thinking about that, actually. Gross. Raizen had survived 700 years of intentional starvation, at the height of his power. If he were to live his life normally, how long would that last? How many of Keiko's descendants would he see...yeah, no. We're closing up that mental road. Out of service, thank u.]

Whatever though, dude. If you're scared to lose to a "little one", that's cool. I hear it's not nice to bully the elderly, anyway.

[Ohh Genkai would have his ass for that comment. He misses her so much.]

[nilhilistic]

[ demons, huh? not something rafal has direct experience with, but he knows of them from other worlds. demon dragons, demons from other realms. they share some distant ancestry at least.

after all, a fell dragon's power stems from the underworld. they raise the corrupted. ]

Then you shouldn't be doing it, should you.

[avitus]

Probably not. But, y'know, I'm a trashy punk delinquent. The sort that's an embarrassment for the whole community.

[Chip on his shoulder??? Never heard of her. This is fine dot jpg.]

So you better watch your ass, old man.

[nilhilistic]

I don't know what that means.

[ trash, certainly. punk? delinquent? who knows. humans make up things all the time. he can't be bothered to keep up with it. ]

But somehow I feel confident that it matters not.

[avitus]

[He does have to doubletake a moment, because how do you react when someone isn't familiar with the concepts that have made up your entire self-image your whole life? But after a moment:]

It means a pain in the ass who doesn't respect his elders. So like I said, watch out.

[nilhilistic]

What a bizarre way to call oneself. And you're proud of this?

[ a "pain in the ass"??? ]

[avitus]

[He shrugs]

I just own it.

[lolol self-esteem whomst.]

[nilhilistic]

You own being . . . a pain in the ass.

[avitus]

Yeah? I mean, I don't have shit to prove to anyone. It's whatever.

[nilhilistic]

But you are proving something, aren't you?

You're playing into their perceptions of you.

[avitus]

I'm just being who I am, man. Whatever other people wanna think about that, I don't care. Doesn't change me.

[nilhilistic]

But you still think of yourself in derogatory terms.

Is that who you are?

[avitus]

[Yusuke...blinks, like someone's telling him the sky is blue, but that's wrong actually, and has he considered it ought to be green?]

I mean...it's not derogatory if it's true, right? Not exactly like I'm polite.

[nilhilistic]

But you treat it as the sole truth. The only truth.

Which is why I asked: Is that who you are?

[avitus]

[The equivalent of the simple dog eee persists in his expression. He shrugs.]

I never really thought about it that hard, I guess. I mean, what's the point worrying about how to explain who you are, right? Like I said, I'm just me.

[nilhilistic]

So you've said multiple times.

Do you know who you are?