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014. 💥 TXT; UN: BOMBSHELL

hi, its me! jinx, ur favorite loose cannon and demolition diva! im good, how are u? never better.

im in a pissy mood, so WE are going to do something that is fun for me. but firsts thing first:

feast ur eyes on THIS! i know, i know. me? jinx? running a kitty cat cafe? look even a semi crazy chick like me loves these little furballs. and the other me made a KILLER living with this coffee joint. annnd i still remember how to make my famous strawberries n' creme, java chip frappuccino, ristretto, cold brew, and other stuff. soooo why not right? ill still take ur repair orders and junk too. if u need ur guns or weapons made, im still ur girl! i can make ur coffee AND ur bombs at the same time. they go hand in hand anyway.

the first 5 customers who comes to my shop gets to pet and hold fishbones. and THATS a steal offer. so id take it if i were u.

okok on to the fun part!!!!!!!!!💣💥💣💥💣💥

when i get hot and heated, i like to explode my problems away. get rid of them and just shred them into teeny tiny little pieces until they are nothing but worthless worms underneath my boots. have them wiggle all around and watch them fight for survival!

the big wigs or whoever are very picky so how about i blow UR problems away? so. lay it on me. did someone kill u recently and need a cool idea on how to get them back? is someone u love or care for keeping secrets from u and it makes u want to blow up their vocal cords? got into a nasty fight and u want them to apologize to u first cause it's their fault and not urs?

whatever problem u got, jinx is here to listen and give out a few pointers! im a genius, so i know all the answers. keep it anonymous or not, ur choice. i don't care

or if u DONT have a problem and u just miss me and wanna chat, im here for that, too! so let's go go go go go 🙈🙉🙊

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Have you set the open date yet for this month or are you saving it for the next month? Also, has someone upset you recently to cause the last half of this post?

[He has no idea there was a confrontation between Jinx and Richard.]

not yet! the system might evaporate this place away. but i guess it would make sense to open it now before its gone.

ding ding, yep!

Hmmm, agreed. I am in a similar situation. It would be a shame to rebuild if this place goes to shambles but equally so if it course corrects back to when we arrived. Would you care to discuss the matter? We can do so privately.

if this reset thing means we have to live back to the old aldrag, i think ill throw myself off a building.

whats the point? we've talked about it already and it goes nowhere.

That would be pointless as you'd come back if you died or potentially sustain a broken neck. You're still upset about that breakfast conversation?

my body is not as squishy as everyone else's. ill be fine.

i wasnt until i read some stuff.

I'd prefer not to take that risk. I like you healthy, and we will survive whatever this place changes to or from. What 'stuff'?

im pretty healthy!

👉👌 🤐 🥱 🤫 🙄 😡

Let's keep it that way. I'm going to require a text-based translation. I'm not up to date on emojis as sentences.

i did scratch myself until i bled earlier. didnt mean to. but i healed so im ok.

[PRIVATE]

i confronted someone, they continued to keep quiet, said i had a wild imagination, that im crazy basically. saying my fantasies are c o n c e r n i n g and i should really REALLY talk to my father about it cause its sooooo worrisome.

u know, starting to hate the guy more and more. and im SUPER trying to be nice over here. just goes to show that being a nice girl or a goody-goody is for the birds.

Your ability to heal is something to count one's blessings about.

[Private]

Perhaps confronting someone would not be considered as nice as you would like it to seem. Some prefer privacy. I expect you decided to throw your weight against Richard.

its too bad i cant donate blood. i saw that thing earlier.

[PRIVATE]

i wasnt GOING to until i saw the bit where he was married and i got pretty concerned. hes married and u two are.... doing THAT. it shows hes not...u know. loyal. and it makes me feel uncomfortable. u should be around people who will be loyal to u and take it seriously.

There is no blood bank in Aldrip.

[Private]

You are loyal to me, and I to you. That's all that matters. Who I am sleeping with is loyal too. I don't want you to be concerned.

oh i know! still too bad i cant donate.

[PRIVATE]

silco. hes married. thats the OPPOSITE of loyal. dont tell me i have to teach u ur own lesson.

You could, but it wouldn't be wise.

[Private]

His marriage has nothing to do with me.

[Sorry Jinx, he still wasn't admitting he and Richard were together.]

i know, i know. people will die, blah blah. but it would be a cool way to stick it to the council if they somehow need a blood transfusion.

[PRIVATE]

are u KIDDING ME? well i got news for u, it DOES! if his wife or husband or whatever shows up and discovers the two of u, guess who's going to get murdered? and i will have to bail u out of it.

ill do it anyway, duh. ill do anything for u, but im trying to save u from ur #3. 3x in death is NOT a charm.

jeez, u 2 are going to drive me to kill. literally.

and u know what, ill tell u what i told him.

the more u 2 keep this stupid secret that i already know about, the worse its going to be for the both of u. ESPECIALLY if u suddenly DO DECIDE to finally tell me that u 2 ARE together when u could have just told me freaking WEEKS or months ago WHEN I FIGURED IT OUT!!

i dont get it why u or him cant just tell me so we can all just move on with our lives? ive already said i wont hurt him or u or will break u 2 up. trust me. i learned that the hard way with vi and that stupid enforcer.

I don't ever doubt that the Council has many different ways to kill us, isolate us and deprive us of what we need.

[Private]

Then perhaps he is happily married; I hear such a concept is possible for some, but that never interested me. Perhaps a united front with one's chosen spouse would make life better for him. Perhaps not. I don't understand why it is so important to you to force anyone to admit anything when you apparently already have all our secrets? I expect because there is a shadow of doubt.

because im trying to fix US, silco. THATS why. ure the one who said our relationship has been all flip-floppy and twisty since the death thing.

and i cant fix it all by myself. it takes 2 people to do that, not just all me. i kept quiet about ekko because U were keeping quiet with ME. and u want to kill him, but thats beside the point right now. but i finally came clean about him, so NOW its UR turn to come clean. but u wont do that and its pissing me off!

if u want to keep this wedge gross slop feeling in our relationship, fine. then i guess itll just stay there until U decide to do something about it. and by the time u do that, itll be too late cause i would be stabbing richards face 1000000 times because the bastard wont stop insulting me.

actually. ill stab him 1000000000000000000000 harder because right now he is making me sound im delusional about this when u and i know im not. and u KNOW i have a problem with. seeing things that are not there sometimes. and i dont like it when people... do that to me on purpose. its already hard for me, ok??? with the stupid glitches and crap.

im tired.

[There was a long pause between replies, which meant he was thinking and weighing his options. Perhaps she would consider it telling, perhaps not. He didn't often take his time to have long pauses with his conversations with her.

However, he had a lot to consider, especially in the face of Jinx being the most important person in his life. He had spent years protecting her, defending her, and being her fiercest ally. He didn't enjoy seeing her upset, but she also didn't have all the information to understand how loaded her demands were. And her threats towards Richard were a warning to him just as much, and it only fed into the perception of her unhinged jealousy stemming from his initial admittance to having a lover in the first place.

He had no doubt she could and would hurt Richard. Would she 'jinx' his one selfishly good thing in Aldrip?]

What you have with the boy is infinitely more dangerous than what I have at this time. I'm concerned a part of him will be using you to get to me, and I would prefer to avoid that at all costs. I've defended you against external threats, and also allowed you opportunity to develop your own strategies. You've let this threat in close, and I'm concerned for you so yes, I have no issue removing him or harming him. However, I have not because you seem to be growing attached. I expect you will defend yourself appropriately. There are mitigating factors as to why I keep their identity to myself. If you are engaging Richard privately, I expect you are coming on as strong with him as you are with me. If you wish to stab him, I expect it will be over a business feud between your distaste of him mobilizing the Chosen. I know it is difficult. I will help you any way that I am able.

[ there's a bit of pause on her side, too. but a message comes through in given time. ]

u want to play hard ball? fine. u know. i could have liked him. maybe learned to like him. we could have started all of this over and get on the right foot. but u 2 ruined that possibility.

i know what ure thinking. ill just be loyal to my daughter and itll be fine and dandy because loyalty can exist without honesty. its that little gray line u found, so u can have ur cake and eat it too.

but what u DONT know is, is that loyalty without honesty is short-lived. they go hand in hand like the sun and the moon. they need each other to exist. loyalty requires honesty, one cant be loyal if they are willing to lie in front of ur face.

so loyalty without trust is pointless.

keep it up, pops. u and ur little play thing. ill sit back and polish my guns in the meantime.

but just know when u 2 DO decide to get bored, or the guilt starts tearing u up on the inside and u tell me the truth after u AND him have made me look like im some psycho bitch for however long u two want to keep playing ON PURPOSE............... things are going to get ugly and REALLY sticky.

Edited 2024-09-02 16:31 (UTC)

Your like or dislike of people in this place is for you to decide. As it has always been here and back in Runeterra, though it remains pleasing that you have developed close connections with some of the other Chosen. I have been honest with you, Jinx. I told you that I had met someone, but it was you who remains completely dissatisfied that I have kept their identity to myself. My loyalty to you remains, but if my years of proving that to you will be so easily discarded over a sexual partner, I don't know what to tell you. Threatening me now?

ooooh oooooooohhh DONT pull that crap. do u really want me to bring up how u found out vi came back and u tried to hide THAT from me?

this is THAT all over again! except this time, im trying to be more adult about this than i was back then! im trying to be more understanding, more accepting, but ure making this so damn hard!!

ive said i wont hurt u
ive said i wont hurt THEM
ive said i wont break u 2 up
i fessed up i have some weird feelings about ekko
ive told u ABOUT ekko

what else do u want from me?! what else do i need to do to show that its OK for u to freaking tell me?! want me to crush all my weapons and forbid using them for a year or something to prove that i wont? want me to surrender the hex gemstone to u so u can give them as a gift? want me to chop my hair to prove how serious i am???

im trying to be a better daughter to u, a better weapon, a better EVERYTHING because of what ive done to u TWICE and i feel like ure not letting me.

look at us. we're fighting over something so stupid!!!

We both are well aware of what 'sitting back and polishing your guns' means, Jinx. I've put you in situations far too often where you use them to not understand the kinds of places that you will or where you intend to. Your sister and my personal pleasure are very different scenarios.

[That's all he could say on that choice back then because he was stubborn about this stupid truce that Vi had cornered him in. After all, them not speaking actually benefitted him far more than it could ever benefit her. So he's uphold it.

Now, deep breath, Silco.]

I want you to respect my boundary in keeping the identity to myself. Nothing more, nothing less. I will tell you when I am ready to, and it is no slight to you or the trust that we have with each other. You are my family, my daughter, and that will never change. I understand that you are trying to protect me, and I appreciate your efforts in that. I want you to be happy, and I expect that the reverse is true for you towards me. What I have currently and how I have it provides me a measure of contentment.

fine. u want me to respect ur freaking boundaries even though i had come clean about ekko because THATS SOOOOO FAIR, fine. ure the parent. and father knows best.

if u ever do decide to tell me its richard after all of this denial, calling me crazy, making me seem im delusional, and im living in a fantasy world and junk, i hope u know its something i wont forgive either of u for. we can still be a family, and u'll always be my dad and i will love u forever, but im always going to be upset with u about this.

i dont like it when people mess with my head on purpose, its cruel and its wicked. and it hurts to know he became THAT important to u that u are perfectly OK with messing up my head like this. it feels like im losing u after all.

whatever. gemstone is on the table, so are my weapons, my gas mask and shimmer. u can keep it. if u need me, ill be in my room.

[Someone is pinching the bridge of their nose. He should have expected this, but honestly, she hadn't cared for his brief physical associates. Of course he had been paying them...]

Neither do I appreciate anyone messing with your head and your perception of the world. This place does it enough without anything that I do to contribute to that; we have worked hard together to have a safe space together. If Richard has said you are insane, I will deal with him. I don't want your items. Keep them with you, Jinx.

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