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[nilhilistic]

I am curious now, considering what this world is for and what it attempts to do.

Is there a crime you would consider unforgivable? What would it be?

And if that isn't the case, what is your idea of repatriation?

Please, share your thoughts.

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[rebellions]

Believe it or not, it's not that uncommon.

[ He has. Some experience in that regard, um. ]

But that doesn't change the fact it makes things more complicated, one way or another.

[ He still stands by his original comment, if he was asked about forgiving his little siblings? That would become a whole separate conversation. ]

[nilhilistic]

[ his brow furrows. ]

It was not just her. I spoke to the ones I had abused and they too had forgiven me.

[rebellions]

Are all people spineless over there or are you just so damn special?

[ He does have to wonder... ]

[nilhilistic]

I would not say people committed to fighting a war spineless.

As for being special . . . I would not say so either.

[rebellions]

Insert some bullcrap about how war is, in fact, the cowards' way in here. Not that I believe any of that shit, mind you.

[ He's not much of a pacifist, but that doesn't mean he's not aware of their arguments. ]

Barring that, though, I'm running outta excuses. Maybe people back in your world are just built different.

[nilhilistic]

[ hm. ]

Perhaps they are. They can be nonsensical.

[rebellions]

There you have it. Some people are apparently saints like that, though I'd rather call them idiots.

[ Of course he would. ]

My point stands, though. Some things cannot be forgiven.

[nilhilistic]

What things though? You never said.

[rebellions]

[ "None of your business" is almost the answer he gives, but he makes a pause before defaulting to his usual comeback. He doesn't necessarily want to admit it, but after a moment of hesitation, he figures it won't hurt him to say this much. ]

... Hurting my family.

[nilhilistic]

[ for some reason, that surprises him. it makes sense, of course. and yet.

rafal wonders where he himself stands, even now. he risked it all to bring nel back, but would he consider it unforgivable if someone hurt her?

they were fell. to hurt and to be hurt . . . isn't that what they were born for? ]

I see. That makes sense.

[rebellions]

[ Ugh. These three words of honesty make him feel like he's burned his tongue saying them. The fact Rafal simply acknowledges it only causes him to feel even more awkward, so he lets out an annoyed snort, eager to move on from that. ]

Well? Don't just leave me hanging here. What about you?

[ Is... is this what they call "having a conversation"? Is that what being a somewhat well-adjusted member of society feels like?! ]

[nilhilistic]

[ he's . . . not sure. what he's done is surely unforgivable, but other than nel, the emblems and the last of the four winds, there's no one left to condemn him.

perhaps being rafal was the real crime. his utter failure to grasp his own worth, to understand, to believe he could be . . . loved. allowed to live. to have a place where he could belong. but he admitted to that, then everything becomes pointless. he chose to live. he chose to stay by nel. he chose to make amends.

finally, he shakes his head. ]

I do not know. I do not consider myself a forgiving person but . . . I do not have an answer.