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[The last thing Katsuki is used to is being uncertain - about himself, about anything he does, about the world around him and how it works. But this whole reset thing turned everything on its head. Sure, Izuku had explained about it probably being a simulation and all, but it was tough to quantify and really believe until he experienced the reset. Fought to make sure the reset happened, even though he didn't really know what that meant. So he has a few questions.]
if this is a simulation, what does that mean? for the people back home, I mean.
what does it mean for us?
["Is anything we do here real?" hangs in the air unspoken. That just feels a little too vulnerable to say out loud. All of this is a little too vulnerable, but he asks anyway. It's been weighing on him.]
if this is a simulation, what does that mean? for the people back home, I mean.
what does it mean for us?
["Is anything we do here real?" hangs in the air unspoken. That just feels a little too vulnerable to say out loud. All of this is a little too vulnerable, but he asks anyway. It's been weighing on him.]
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i got here during bon
yeah
i mean obviously
whod help us
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dunno, maybe people from home, if we've disappeared from there, I know my mom will be losing her shit and demanding they look for me
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big ghost festival
you know
how would that help
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if they're looking for us, that's something! not that I've got any objection to getting myself out of here
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still not entirely convinced that im not dead and this place isnt hell
if other people could get us out of here rin already wouldve
the fact that were still here means were on our own
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who's rin?
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but that doesnt mean it didnt happen
lots of people like sneak attacks
someone i know
a hero
a real hero
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a real hero huh? we've got a lot of those back home. tell me about 'em?
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gas leak
explosion
poison
heart attack
theres a million ways
whats to say
elemental knight is a real hero
saves people from the monsters i made
fights in the darkness
wears a helmet
doesnt fight for a reward or glory
just to help people
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sounds like a real hero, yeah.
wait, you made monsters? on purpose?
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well
its a little complicated
but basically
i did what the goddess commanded
never found anyone else who could control the power
everyone ended up monsters
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wait, let me clear this up. there's a power that can turn people into monsters that only you can control and some goddess told you to use it?
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elemental knight is the only one who was a hero with that power
the rest of us were
well
villains i guess
or i used to be
its complicated
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if you're reformed now, you're not a villain anymore, I don't think. did you pay for your crimes?
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im helping elemental knight now
but this place clearly doesnt think thats enough
what does paying for it even mean
what crimes am i paying for
does doing enough good just cancel out everything i did before
does the bad that happened to me cancel out the bad i did
its all stupid
[sorry bakugo
it's philosophy hour now]
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nothing cancels out the stuff you did before, but doing good can atone for it
back home I'd say that you paid for it if you went to prison for your crimes, but it doesn't sound like it's that simple for you
for what it's worth, I think it says something that elemental knight forgave you
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other than this place i guess
theres no justice in that shit
the pigs just want to lock people up because thats how they get paid
they dont care
they just want to wave their power around on anyone who doesnt fit in
ive seen the shit theyll pull
but thanks
im doing my best to be like her
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[Or he's just young, and hasn't seen that side of the police yet. It's a sobering thought.]
that's good. I guess, without jail, proving that you've changed is the important part. that's how I'm trying to handle it
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but theres only the one hero
and its not like she fights criminals or anything
i dunno
have i changed
even when i was fighting for the goddess
i was trying to make a just world
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she fights what? monsters?
how the hell would I know if you've changed, we just met
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of course she fights monsters
you dont need a hero to fight people
yeah im just thinking
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oh. yeah. okay
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thats fucked up
[what else can she even say.]
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it makes sense
people become monsters when they get power
they get controlled by their selfish wishes
and only care about their own shit
if everyone in your world got power
no wonder it needs that many heroes just to keep running
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