near the end of july, audio

[bonobos]

[ he’s been sitting on it for awhile. eventually, much to his chagrin, the guilt comes to a head; it’s a voice message sent to all of the chosen. ]

…The Gnosia were from my home.

They almost killed me twice. I guess three times now if we count what just happened.

When you’re Gnosia, it doesn’t matter what your heart screams or what your mind tells you. There’s somethin’ in you that needs to kill people no matter what. Back on the DQO, I saw… some of my crewmates… people who weren’t bad guys turn totally different after they got infected. It’s like night and day. You can’t do jack about it. Nobody knows where it came from either.

[ there’s a beat. ]

All I’m sayin’ is… if you need someone to blame, or be mad at or whatever, you can take it out on me. None of this would’ve happened if I wasn’t here. Even I ain’t dumb enough to deny that. So yeah.

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[invinciblemikey]

I'mma have to teach you some better copin' skills, motherfucker. Grow a spine.

(lovingly.)

Yeah. Better for you, actually, long story.

Nah. You a freak. We gonna go to a strip club. You need it.

[bonobos]

Ughhhhhhhh.

[ WHINE. but then there’s like, a three second pause in disbelief. ]

…Strip club?

Ain’t you gay?

[invinciblemikey]

Extremely.

But we can go to one with girls. It's fine.

... Wait, ain't you gay as fuck too? Could have sworn.

[bonobos]

No, let’s get one with the best of both worlds. Girls AND guys. And whoever else they got there.

I mean, I fuck dudes, I’m equal opportunity and all that but I don’t really date ‘em… unless you count…uh—

Actually, I’m not gonna go into that.

Anyways, you’re a good guy or whatever. Even if you’re a hardass. I know it’s ‘cause you give a damn. So uhhh…

Thanks. I guess. I’m not good at this crap…

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[invinciblemikey]

You actually don't have to, I smell the borscht.

Yeah, I know you love me, I'm very lovable. You don't have to say it.

Come to the dojo, we're taking my motorcycle so you feel cool for once.

[bonobos]

Wh-- I didn't say anything about that! What if I'm not into Slavs?

Shut upppppppp. You're soooooooo annoying, you know that?

Ughhhhhh. Make sure there's a second helmet, I don't wanna die if we crash.

[invinciblemikey]

Maybe not Slavs, but definitely thighs.

Yep. It's part of the loveable thing.

You can keep mine, and we are not going to crash. Chop, chop.