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[laserguy]

[Look, it's not because of his sentencing that he's making a message like this; he's been meaning to apologize to everyone that he hurt last month. Stupid Jerry and the stupid council had kicked him to high gear, but he definitely doesn't feel forced talking like this. Just. A little anxious and shit, because who wouldn't be?

Maybe it would be better if he just personally reached out to those that were affected, but honestly, some memories around that time are foggy. Kind of happens when you have a splitting headache from your powers while dealing with anger caused by corruption.]

Hey, uh, in case you didn't know, I was the one that destroyed the club building. [Kotone didn't mention it in her broadcast, because she's that kind of person, but he'll own up to it.] Thanks for everyone that's helping out with that, by the way. I'm gonna be working on rebuilding too. Can't have TWAT club without the building, right?

[Ha ha......]

Just wanted to also apologize for everything. Especially if I hurt you, I... I don't remember some of it, but that doesn't mean it didn't happen and shit. So, uh.

[.....]

Just wanted to say that.

[SMOOTH AF. Just going to end the feed now.]

Comments

[opheliac]

its part of my "punishment".

( what scott will notice next after this message is sent, there's a lot of animated "..." to indicate she's typing a response, then stopping, then starting, then stopping, then starting again. but the message will get sent to him eventually. )

i cant do anything violent. i cant shoot, i cant make my weapons, i cant think about anything violent, i cant have conversations about violence or death or hurting people because my head will lead to me THINKING about violence.

i cant even LOOK at it. without feeling really sick or be in excruciating pain, or both. thats why i told that kid to shut the hell up about killing jerry. i didnt want him to rise the whole town up and everyone start a stabbing party.

and shit sucks because i cant always control what my... head does. sometimes i see things that arent really there and i cant... always tell if, i dont know, something like a cute little puppy is ripping apart a bird and then the bird wakes up and bites the puppy's head off -- is that real? or my head screwing with me?

and this dump is filled with monsters everywhere and i dont know if theyre MY monsters or REAL monsters. but it doesnt matter because seeing all of this real or not makes me sick. WRITING THIS hurts.

i keep throwing up. its only a matter of time, ill toss up worse than food. and this "sentence"... its different. i asked jerry how long i have to deal with this, he said as long as it needs it to be. and i need to start acting "accordingly". what the hell does that even mean?! its so freaking vague. do i just sit in my room all day and do nothing? do i do errands to get myself out of it?

and i cant use my shimmer abilities either. if i get attacked by a monster, then im dead meat. if THIS doesnt kill me first.

[laserguy]

[Scott's taking the time to read this, give him a moment. Just. There's a lot. Jinx unable to even think about violence or else she starts feeling pain?? That's really serious, more extreme than anything he's heard the council do before. Is this what happens when someone gets into trouble a little too often? Still, she doesn't deserve something like this.

And uh, that's definitely hallucinations. Definitely not great. Maybe because of the drugs??]

Okay okay, you don't have to type about that anymore.

I get why you asked me about hobbies last time now. Let's focus on that, okay?

dont ask what happened. i dont know either. my tablet did something wild.

[opheliac]

thanks scott. i saw an old geezer making bead bracelets earlier today. i think i might do that to pass the time.

would u want one if i get the hang of it?

it has a mind of its own

[laserguy]

Hey, that sounds pretty cool. I know a lot of girls likes to craft bracelets and everything.

[Normally he would say no, but.]

Yeah, I'd totally want one. Make it with my favorite colors. :p

im pretty sure it does.

[opheliac]

green it is!

[laserguy]

[At least she didn't say red--]

Green? Seriously? What gave you that impression?

[opheliac]

green is earthy, leaves, the trees, the grass. stem of a flower. its life.
and ure full of life.

[laserguy]

[...That's actually kind of sweet, wow. Scott's momentarily surprised and fuck, he can't just say my favorite color is blue after all that.]

Guess I'm kind of am, huh? Okay, green it is.

Hey, maybe you should make these bracelets for your other friends too.

[opheliac]

yeah, maybe i should.

oh hey. speaking of friends, or well... sorta. think u can do me a teeny tiny favor?

[laserguy]

[Should he be worried--]

Depends, what's the favor?

[opheliac]

( before she writes, jinx triple checks this conversation if it's still set on private, and it is. thank janna above. )

will u let quentin know he'll need to buy new clothes? if he hadnt noticed already. his room should still look ok besides that.

[laserguy]

Yeah, I can let him know. Thanks for not destroying the house and shit, by the way.

Have you guys talked at all?

[He knows they're in the middle of some drama and stuff, which honestly sucks. He likes Jinx for the most part and Quentin is annoying, but he's the other mutant here with him. It's not like he wants them to fight.]

[opheliac]

yeah. and it looks like he wants me keep everything to myself.

screw letting him know how i feel, think, or if i need help. thats my problem now to handle.

and im ok with it. its every man for themselves out here anyway.

[laserguy]

huh?? what the hell.

he really said that he doesn't want to hear about your problems? that... doesn't seem like him.

1/2

[opheliac]

hold on.

2/2

[opheliac]

( minutes pass, and he will receive a text of their conversation. it seems scott is getting roped into the drama regardless he wanted to stay away from it with a ten-foot pole (and to avoid a long copy-paste to this tag, pretend scott either get a wall of text of the conversation or at least screenshot pictures of their talk.) also the player just woke up from sleeping and fail at html. )

[laserguy]

[he didn't want this.......]

okay so this a lot, just putting it out there.

[honestly both of them are a mess but.]

you know how quentin gets. he's an asshole. but i think he still cares.

cw: nsfw ha ha ha

[opheliac]

well, he has a funny way of showing it. he really knows how to make a girl feel good.
actually.
the monster between his legs can but thats besides the point im making.

[laserguy]

[dude]

i didn't need to hear that thanks.

look i can't promise anything, but i'll mention to quentin about talking to you again.

[opheliac]

u dont have to, hot eyes. let him have an extend "me" time vacation or whatever.

im considering bailing this place anyway. move away to another village.

[laserguy]

[he feels like has to mention this to quentin now.]

wait what?? just because of quentin?

where would you go?

[opheliac]

dont be silly. hes not the whole reason.

its just, u know, some people, the council, all that junk. this world is huge or it has to be. theres got to be more cities than aldrag, rumpies, and kee-kees.

why not check it out?

[laserguy]

according to the world map, we're on an island.

it's going to suck trying to explore outside of here. like. you don't know know how long you might be at sea-- plus it's probably really dangerous.

[he's worried, okay. also he's not very happy at the thought of jinx leaving town, it's kind of upsetting.]

[opheliac]

come on, scott. dont u know me? i AM the danger!!
besides, who says anything about going to sea?
im not going way out THERE. just another village.

[laserguy]

[scott figures that he shouldn't point out that said danger is getting fucked up by jerry and the council.]

if you're not going to sea, the only other villages i see on the map are gunma and brorudun?? and looks like a desert or mountains are in the way, depending which way you go. sounds like a pain.

besides, uh, i thought you can't leave anymore.