Scott 'has zero self-respect' Summers (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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expiationnet2024-04-03 09:13 pm
laserguy) wrote in expiationnet2024-04-03 09:13 pm
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[Quentin's still not back home.
He takes a long breath, mostly to get his feelings somewhat under control. His roommate is a huge asshole, but he's worried and everything. Maybe he should just do text, but whatever, he's going through with this.]
If anyone has seen Quentin Quire around, tell him to stop fucking around and come back. He's uh.
[Fuck, what is his normal hair color?????]
He's a dweeb with a mohawk and glasses. Usually wearing some stupid t-shirt with a slogan on it. Anyway, tell him that his room is starting to smell.
[Please don't be gone. Fuck. Did he get lost in the middle of all this bullshit? Trapped somewhere? Sent 'home?' They just went through that whole stupid thing with the alternative life and now Aldrip is a city, so he's feeling all kind of ways. He's really confused and upset and he doesn't know what he's supposed to do, but he's starting here.]
Oh, I'm calling a mandatory 'we're going to the movie theater' event to all members of TWAT club. Don't feel like going? Too bad, don't care, you're going-- that's what mandatory means. Leader's orders.
[He just wants to do something normal with his friends okay--]
He takes a long breath, mostly to get his feelings somewhat under control. His roommate is a huge asshole, but he's worried and everything. Maybe he should just do text, but whatever, he's going through with this.]
If anyone has seen Quentin Quire around, tell him to stop fucking around and come back. He's uh.
[Fuck, what is his normal hair color?????]
He's a dweeb with a mohawk and glasses. Usually wearing some stupid t-shirt with a slogan on it. Anyway, tell him that his room is starting to smell.
[Please don't be gone. Fuck. Did he get lost in the middle of all this bullshit? Trapped somewhere? Sent 'home?' They just went through that whole stupid thing with the alternative life and now Aldrip is a city, so he's feeling all kind of ways. He's really confused and upset and he doesn't know what he's supposed to do, but he's starting here.]
Oh, I'm calling a mandatory 'we're going to the movie theater' event to all members of TWAT club. Don't feel like going? Too bad, don't care, you're going-- that's what mandatory means. Leader's orders.
[He just wants to do something normal with his friends okay--]
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Thanks, Scott.
[ Granted, she doesn't sound much happier - but it's not like Ange sounds happy all that often, and the words don't sound fake or dismissive. She doesn't even shift away from where she's still leaning against him.
It's just that talking about this isn't easy when she never did so before. ]
I think.. maybe it's the first time anyone has ever told me that. I'm sure that must sound silly.
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...
God he sounds so sappy. When did that happen again? Guess after learning that his friends have hard lives, or that some of them can only exist in this place. It's all hard. He couldn't be that grumpy solemn teenager knowing all that. Maybe it's just channeling that anger to something else, like being a little upset on Ange's behalf.]
It's not silly, it just sucks that no one's ever said something like that to you. I like you, Ange, you're a really good friend. I meant what I said that you're like one of my best friends here.
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[ She pauses, like she's verbally tripping over her own words, and only then tries again. ]
Don't you ever feel like it's a bad idea to get attached to people here? [ Surely Scott must have thought about it, Ange thinks. Especially since he's dating someone here, which is a level even beyond just becoming friends with people. And Ange already thinks the latter is terrifying enough in and of itself, considering the point she's making here. ]
I mean, one day we're all just going to go back to our own worlds. We won't ever see each other again.
[ And Ange knows that she will likely not even be alive for that much longer either, if she'll even be alive at all when she goes back. ]
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At least he has a comparison right now, someone to think about, someone important to him that is no longer here.
Dazai's probably back home, causing his usual brand of chaos, and if he ever returns, he won't remember Scott at all. Won't recall the times he helped and mentored him through a bunch of personal shit. It'll suck, like majorly, but he still can't say he wished he'd never met the man. So, applying that same mindset to everyone else... he shakes his head to Ange's question.]
It's going to hurt later. I know it will.
[He somehow says that with a calm voice, even though there's a note of pain in it as well. Not like he's immune to the idea of never seeing Kotone or Ange or any of his friends ever again. Honestly, his chest constricts almost painfully at the mere thought of it. Live each day to the fullest is what Koto always said...]
But... I'd be more upset if I never got to be friends with you and the others. [Are those memories enough? ...They'll have to be. He just has to hold them really close.]
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Maybe the answer doesn't surprise her all that much.
Especially since she then starts, a little quietly: ]
You're a strong guy, Scott.
[ No matter what he himself might think. Given some of their past talks and encounters, she feels like he might be inclined to disagree with that - but it's her honest opinion of him. ]
I think that even if it hurts for you later, you'll be okay.
[ Though she doesn't mention anything about herself. ]
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[He's not sure if he's really strong, but Scott doesn't try to start denying her words either. He just doesn't know what he'd do if he tried to stop being friends with everyone or break things off with Kotone... he definitely couldn't handle that. Besides, he's pretty sure that she'd be very upset with him, especially if that was his reasoning.
So, instead, Scott bumps his shoulder against Ange, a small smile to him before he decides to prod her about her thoughts about this.]
How about you, Ange?
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[ Her answer is a little quiet. Mostly because it's complicated. Ange isn't entirely sure whether she's even got her own head fully wrapped around it at this point. ]
I've never been close to people before. [ It just didn't happen back home. Who would there even have been to be close to?
She's not counting her imaginary friends, or her imaginary dead family members. That's different. These are actual people here. ]
It kind of feels like it's too late for me to start doing that by now. [ Despite the fact that she's sitting here with Scott. In their shared house. With her leaning against him.
But that's exactly the problem. She's doing all this, but at the same time she feels so unsure about it all. ]
I guess it's the first time I've ever said that.
[ To anyone.
Even to herself. ]
Maybe I just.. don't know how to do it.
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He's not great at this, but.]
It's not too late, you're still here and everything. That means there's still time.
[None of them know how long they're going to stay here, but Scott doesn't want to say something like that out loud.] And hey, you got the expert here to help.
[Jesus, the old him would perish thinking that he was an expert on having friends.]
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Maybe that's why she doesn't stray further down the path of what they were talking about. Instead she lets out a puff of breath after the last thing Scott says there. ]
What, are you going to give me tips for friendship or something?
[ At least that's a little bit lighter, meant as a joke. ]
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Maybe.
[He's not sure how he became the 'friendship' guy. He never considered himself to be one of those types before. He was the outcast with few friends back home, but things changed. Maybe it was that continuation of meeting people who are just as weird as him, the motivation to make them feel normal and okay just for a little. Make him feel normal. He started it with Jean and Kurt and Jubliee back home, so... guess all this reminded how comfortable he was with them.
Besides, he genuinely likes his friends here. Corny, yeah.]
Don't worry, I'll only save them for special occasions. [He snorts, letting the topic shift into something light.] I don't want to appear like someone from a children's cartoon.
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[ Sorry, Scott.
At least Ange's tone is still a little more quiet, which makes it feel way less like a very direct roast, especially compared to how flat Ange's usual tone is. Hopefully that makes him feel a little better about it. ]
But it's okay. That's what I like about you. [ Even though she whines and complains about it all the time. There's just something kind of nice about the way Scott is way more social than her here. ] If you weren't here, I probably still would have been all alone now.
[ Putting aside whether that's for the worse or better in the light of their conversation - it's still just true. ]
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Scott can't believe he's been delegated to the 'friendship guy,' when did this happen?? He's never been that kid back home. It's just that he's somehow more social than all of the other teens in this world! ...Kind of like when he first arrived in Xavier's, huh? He huffs a little, sounding just a little offended (but not really), but whatever retort he was about to make diminishes when Ange continues.
...Because man, now he can't complain. Because Ange likes him when he's being friendly and he's made her feel less lonely, which is what he wanted. It is nice that he's made someone that he cares about feel better like that. Like he's really helped someone out.]
Giving me all the credit? Alright. [He doesn't think Ange would be entirely alone; Scott is still of the opinion she has friends other than him, but maybe this is the less embarrassing option. They've been pretty mushy.] Sounds like I should be given a plaque.