Ah, maybe we don't -- but isn't the effort telling in itself? Although you have snippets of information, you don't know what I've done, and truth be told, I don't feel any particular way about it. That said, I use all my skills towards saving others, even if sometimes the methods aren't aligned. Up, down, up, down -- just the fact I am genuinely trying is enough change for someone whose main point in life is to leave it.